Move

It hard to move when you keep on looking back;

Feel like a rose from the highway

Rise up from the craze

And Let it go.

Fast? Time?

Never did i realize that time goes by really fast becasue come to think of it the first semester is already over. It like it going so fast. I kinda really don't want this year to end yet. It not as bad as i thought it would be like you know. Class might be boreding and everything but just being there is kinda fun. Like you never know wut is going to happen when you wake up. You just got to wait. Like im sitting in class and time going by so slow but once the bell right the next thing i know the days is already over and im like wait that hecka fast. Seem like time go by in a blink an eyes and before i know something new is happening...

Hahahaha

The Killers - Somebody Told Me

i don't know wut is it about this song but it got me listening to it over and over again. lmao =D

Mistake?

There are times when i think im doing the right things, but in the end i realize that it a mistake. i'm learning that sometime things might seem to be right, always have a bad turn. Holding on it gonna hurt me more then letting go. Seeing the one i love with someone else hurt like F*** but if i just let go everything is going to be fine because then i realize that maybe "people that are meant to be together are better off apart". Realizing that i could let go because if that person is gone there no point of holding on no more. Love hurt like F*** but it life i have to fail to get where i want to be. And falling in love is just something life bring to my life. Sitting here wondering about the past is not going to change anything. Me letting go of the one i love is the choice i made and i can't regret it. There no point of wasting my tears when i realize that your not here no more. Crying my eyes out is not going to bring you back to me. i have to learn to let go and that things are done and there nothing that i can do about it . i may act like im fine, but then it hit me when i see you with someone else that maybe i made a mistake but i don't regret it. i say it my mistake i let you go and now you move on. I didn't know love can hurt this much. Cupid you shoot me with your arrow and can you take it back now? im wonder was this just some fairy tale that i have fall for or was it for real? im so confused sitting here wondering about the past when i want to stop. i rather be out there then sitting here by myself asking question. Why did everything just fall apart? Was it my fault? i should have acted like i care then act like that your not there? Was falling in love with you was going to hurt me this much? Is there a point for me to keep holding on? With all these question going through my head, i was so lost and i don't know wut to do. Thinking that there no where to turn. As each days past, there wasn't a day i stop thinking about you. I see you at school and i wonder do you still notice me? i want to talk to you but i don't have the gut to because there nothing left to talk about and things aren't the same no more. Sitting in class not knowing wut going on. my grades are falling as the days goes by. Friends know wut happen between us, and im lying to them that im fine putting that smile on my face. Seeing you walk past i put that fake smile on to show that im okay and that nunthing is wrong but deep inside im hurt and confused. Then finally all off a sudden you up on another girl that quick, then it finally hit me and i realize that i don't really need you by my side, your just like every other guys out there. We been through more then hell and ill tell you the truth i have learn a lots from you but once i saw the real you that when when i realize that you wasn't gonna be there no more, and that you not gonna be with me there for me till the end. At that every moment i learn to let go and move on. it gonna take me a while to get me back on my two own feet but i can do it. i have fallen down many time before but in the end i can pull myself back up. Wut we had together, im not going to forget it, im not going to regret it, im not gonna cry over it, im just gonna leave it there and leave it as the past.

*My past has changed me forever.*